One of my silat teachers, discovered that I hate eating kerang and asked me why.
Making a face, I said, "Tak suka. Tak suka"
"Habis, kalau itu saja yang ada? Tak makan juga?", he asked. I replied that I wouldn't eat it.
My teacher said, "Nak jadi pendekar, tapi takut kerang? Kalau memang tak hendak makan, tak apa. Tapi, hati-hati, jangan jadi hamba pada nafsu sendiri."
Since then, I've made it a point to try out things that scare me or I think are irrational fears. I can now eat kerang. I still don't like them, and I choose not to eat them, but I no longer have a negative emotional response to it.
When there is something beneficial that I can do, and my nafsu says I can't, I do it, just to prove it wrong. It hasn't been easy, but it's allowed me to sync up and be more honest with myself.
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